Colours Of Dahh Rainbow

jus the second day of the year and first day of sch, im feeling damn f*** up pls. except fer the entertain by nicole cuz she was so frustated with dat lame teacher and laughter from roy and his frends. LOL. first, i flunked 2 papers. i know its kind of expected with the way i attend lectures and tutorials, but of course still dun feel good wad. and the worst is if i change course now, im wasting ONE WHOLE YEAR OF TIME! this is damn frustating, irritating, annoying, and ^&*()!@#$%

next, im jus upset by their attitude. im nt angry but sort of disappointed and sad. i seems to have lost them and the worst is i dunno wads the cause. this is one of my main sector of my life, my motivation and almost everything. this is not the first time im having such problem, but i jus cant figure out the root of the cause.they are the one bringing me joy and heartbreaking moments. im sure i cherish every moment with every one of them, even if its jus a second of my life. but ..they jus hurts me when i have my trust in them. they jus bring me up the peak of joy and let me drop to the bottom of sadness. well, i tink this is going to bug me fer quite some time. =(