Colours Of Dahh Rainbow

As usual, when i couldnt sleep, next day my blog will have such post. so, if u dun wan see jus close lo. not as if it gonna come out in test lor. haha.

alright, i jus realise i've got no determination, perseverance, motivation, purpose, goal or ... i tink ive been spending 16 and a half years fer nothing. i dun like study, dun like work, onli slack. so wad if i gt my diploma ? i dun like working either. jus how am i going to survive like dat ? up to now, i onli tink my interest is eating drink play sleep and spend money. piano, drum, school (which i dun attend), travelling, daily needs and luxurious wants. but wad can i do ? i jus feel this way. i hate life as it is to be. spend a few years crying do nth, spend years and years on studies, decades and decades on working and wad ? when retire, u're old and sick how do u enjoy the rest of the years u have ?

sometimes, i'll jus wonder how will i die. i would often pray dat i could die in my sleep, so that at least i wont have to suffer in the last moment of my life, isnt it true ? but dat would also means i wont have any time to plan fer my wishlist. i jus have so many wishes to fulfill, words to say, places to visit, things to buy and memories to create. i wan to do everything i can when im still young and will the ability to. i dun wan to wait till i have any disable or wad dat would cause my regret.

IM SO NT IN THE MOOD RECENTLY SO DUN COME PROVOKE ME!